[ It's easier to placate Caesar with seemingly agreeing to training now, even if he plans to worm his way out of it for the rest of the day. Who will win? That's the part he's not making bets on right now, but he's hoping to steer things in his favor so that Caesar is far too distracted to even think about training until the end of the day. To which, of course, even if Caesar wanted a late night training session, he'd whine that they needed their sleep because of bright and early mornings. A load of bull, but it's worked before and he'll keep trying to make it work in his favor until it's no longer possible.
For now, though, he's going to focus on the fact that they're relaxing here in a beautiful environment and they don't really need to think about the fact that they're not even at their home world. They probably will, but at least it's not a constant reminder with the technology and landscape. Even if Joseph loves and thrives on all the things they've been exposed to as far as games and entertainment, it is still nice to step away from it all from time to time.
Idly, his thumbs hook under the edge of Caesar's shirt and subtly starts to edge it up. He doesn't move his hands too far from Caesar's hips, though, mainly just wanting to touch a bit of his skin right there. It's a small, subtle gesture to start. While he's not planning to just dive into asking for sex like this, he does want to show some affection before they turn their attention to the basket of food nearby.
If someone had told him that one day he'd be fooling around with this man, he would have laughed in their face initially. Now he hates the thought that he will once again have to return to a life without him. He only wishes he could say the words, "I can't imagine my life without you," without the pain that would come along and the words that would probably follow. Something along the lines that he would have to learn to or it would come in time.
He's also fully aware these thoughts are dangerous and ones he would never utter to Caesar. If he wanted to scare him off and shut whatever this is down immediately, that would be the way to do it. Not only would it seem out of character for Joseph to utter something quite like that, it would make Caesar realize that they should keep things more platonic and, perhaps, even distance a bit from their friendship so that Joseph wouldn't have to go through more pain over losing someone important a second time. Joseph figures Caesar would do something utterly stupid and damage their ties a bit if it meant protecting Joseph from even more hurt, in the end.
Maybe one day that's something they can talk about and grapple with, but for now, Joseph knows their relationship is too fresh and new and they're both exploring new territories. So, he wouldn't risk ruining it all with their precarious situation. ]
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[ It's easier to placate Caesar with seemingly agreeing to training now, even if he plans to worm his way out of it for the rest of the day. Who will win? That's the part he's not making bets on right now, but he's hoping to steer things in his favor so that Caesar is far too distracted to even think about training until the end of the day. To which, of course, even if Caesar wanted a late night training session, he'd whine that they needed their sleep because of bright and early mornings. A load of bull, but it's worked before and he'll keep trying to make it work in his favor until it's no longer possible.
For now, though, he's going to focus on the fact that they're relaxing here in a beautiful environment and they don't really need to think about the fact that they're not even at their home world. They probably will, but at least it's not a constant reminder with the technology and landscape. Even if Joseph loves and thrives on all the things they've been exposed to as far as games and entertainment, it is still nice to step away from it all from time to time.
Idly, his thumbs hook under the edge of Caesar's shirt and subtly starts to edge it up. He doesn't move his hands too far from Caesar's hips, though, mainly just wanting to touch a bit of his skin right there. It's a small, subtle gesture to start. While he's not planning to just dive into asking for sex like this, he does want to show some affection before they turn their attention to the basket of food nearby.
If someone had told him that one day he'd be fooling around with this man, he would have laughed in their face initially. Now he hates the thought that he will once again have to return to a life without him. He only wishes he could say the words, "I can't imagine my life without you," without the pain that would come along and the words that would probably follow. Something along the lines that he would have to learn to or it would come in time.
He's also fully aware these thoughts are dangerous and ones he would never utter to Caesar. If he wanted to scare him off and shut whatever this is down immediately, that would be the way to do it. Not only would it seem out of character for Joseph to utter something quite like that, it would make Caesar realize that they should keep things more platonic and, perhaps, even distance a bit from their friendship so that Joseph wouldn't have to go through more pain over losing someone important a second time. Joseph figures Caesar would do something utterly stupid and damage their ties a bit if it meant protecting Joseph from even more hurt, in the end.
Maybe one day that's something they can talk about and grapple with, but for now, Joseph knows their relationship is too fresh and new and they're both exploring new territories. So, he wouldn't risk ruining it all with their precarious situation. ]